Bone-cancer

Where are you know?
I don't know.
Maybe i should not care.
But i do.
You are dead.
And i think...
it is my fault.
You were waiting,
hoping,
dieing.
And i told you to wait longer.
I did not see you once.
Although i know you trusted me.
And i broke your trust.
I do not expect you to forgive me.
I do not expect you to understand me.
I just want you to know:
I'm sorry.